I have extreme test anxiety. There has never been a test that I have not had sweaty palms, increased heart rate, or jittering leg for. Sometimes I even feel like I'm going to pass out. Finals are no exception to the rule. Finals are worse. I worry about them from the very beginning of the semester.
I tend to put everything on the back burner when that dreadful week comes. Exercise, eating, sleep, and devotions are the ones that I worry about the least. I suppose they should be the ones I pay attention to the most... but that doesn't cross my mind when I'm near a panic attack.
Devotions were definitely not on my "To do" list this week... but somewhere in between increased heart rate and gnawing on trail mix, I decided I'd just take a quick look. I got out my Steps to Christ book and this is what God reminded me of yesterday morning:
"If we would but fully believe this, all undue anxieties would be dismissed. our lives would not be so filled with disappointment as now; for everything, whether great or small, would be left in the hands of God, who is not perplexed by the multiplicity of cares, or overwhelmed by their weight. We should then enjoy a rest of soul to which many have long been strangers."
-pg. 86
I need to write this verse on my wall with bright paint so I'll never forget the thing that is the hardest for me to remember:
God's got it when I don't (and even when I think I do).
ah yes. and finals are almost over too.
ReplyDeleteYou should get poster paper from the TMC and tape it to your wall and write all sorts of great texts and quotes on it! Also we're reading through STC here too, it's packed full of great stuff. Go get'm.
ReplyDeletePS sometime remind me to tell you about my first finals week of College and how it went. . .
You should totally paint this on your wall. Don't worry, the deans will totally understand.
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